ABC's of me - thanx Mon

abc's of me
Felt like some fun...

A - Age: 42 years 4 months 21 days
B - Book: Woman Hollering Creek
C - Chore (dislike): dusting
D - Drink: coffee, beer, tequila
E - Eat: pizza
F - Flower: giant sunflowers
G - Gem: opal or moonstone [my birthstone]
H - Height: 4ft 11 3/4 inches
I - Instruments: cd player
J - Joy: my children
K - Kid(s): daughter 13, son 9
L - Living: central texas
M - Music: a little bit of everything - from Led Zepplin to Vivaldi [borrowed that one]
N - Noise: too quiet all the time no good
O - Ornaments: mostly gifts and stuff made by my children
P - Pet Peeve: bad drivers
Q - Quote: "I have not yet become all that I am". [Lion King]
R - Right or left handed: Right
S - Sibling(s): younger brother, younger sister
T - Time you wake up: 5am during the week; try to sleep til 8 on weekends
U - Underwear: yellow cotton bikinis
V - Vegetable: like most of them - hate lima beans
W - Word: kismet
X - X-rays: knee, and multiple sonograms, two MRI's, dental x-rays numerous
Y - Yearning: creative space
Z - Zoo - a place with lots of wild animals; what my soul feels like sometimes

but this is my therapy.....

i can't not write, not blog, not post! even if no one ever reads it, the words must come out. what a burden to carry inside - like having molten lava inside your chest, knowing you must release it or it will consume you, from the inside out. that's how i feel. this morning's walk was wonderful compared to the last week's worth - its been cold and i can handle that, but its been cold and RAINY, cloudy, dark and dreary, the outside weather reflecting my inner despair. but this morning, once again i felt the hope of a new day, the dark line of clouds diminishing as the beginning of a sunrise struggled to make itself seen. the great blue heron was there; max and i managed not to disturb it standing on the rocks by the second fall, water several inches deep. just a few weeks ago, the rock was exposed, dry and above the water line; with the rain we have had, a whole layer of rocks that max and i walked on are now under water, just a few inches and if it were not 30something degrees out, i would not mind the wet and i would continue on my path as usual. friday, the end of a very rough week, the start of a rougher weekend? hopefully not.

things going on

i may be off the 'net' for some time while i straighten out some things in my personal life.
thank you

rain and mud, rain and mud!

walking with max these last few days has been a chore! even if i don't feel like getting up and taking him out, once we get started,i feel better and i usually come back home feeling energized. BUT with the constant rain, cold, and NO SUN, going out has NOT been the fun it normally is. the only 'critter' we have seen is the great blue heron that has been on the cheatham side of the river instead of the park side; max and i have avoided scaring it away. while the river has been up, the spillway by the river pub that runs under the street has been rather low. where ever the water is going, its going there fast. i hear the sun will come out tomorrow - i'm keeping my fingers crossed but i'm not holding my breath.

on the 6th anniver. of the wardobe malfunction

during the superbowl half time show, i finally will have my say on the ridiculous practice of blurring or not blurring the female nipple on tv. first, i would like to state a few of my beliefs:

1. EVERYONE IS NAKED UNDER THEIR CLOTHES. think about that statement and what it means.

2. NUDITY, IN AND OF ITSELF, IS NEITHER EROTIC NOR PORNOGRAPHIC. nudity is the non-clothed state of the human body, nudity is not an action; it is a state of being.

3. RANDOMLY SELECTING A PARTICULAR PART OF A FEMALE'S BODY AND OBSESSING WITH IT TO A POINT THAT IT CANNOT BE REVEALED IS BOTH OFFENSIVE AND SEXIST ESPECIALLY BECAUSE IT IS DONE WITHOUT CONSISTENCY. male nipples are not blurred out and female nipples are not blurred out on a consistent basis.

i just don't understand WHY, what is the point? its not because its sexual - if that were the case, why show the bumping and grinding of the lap dance in the first place?

and if there's nothing 'happening', someone is naked, no one is engaging in intercourse, why the need to blur?

and why is 'aboriginal' nipple showing ok? i mean, if you are watching pbs and there's the national geographic society filming and no one's nipple or butt or anything is blurred out but if someone is doing a story on a nudist retreat or camp or beach, isn't nudity there 'aboriginal'? why blur it out in that situation?

i just don't get it-- maybe because i have female nipples.

OH, but listen to this, again, i just don't get it - we're watching a show on the discovery health channel, the person was male and had been on track for surgery to become a female- the operation included adding some 'curve' to the hips and breast implants. so the patient is there and the doctor has marked the procedures on his skin, it looks like he has sharpie all over, the surgery is being filmed and at the very second the saline bag was placed under the skin and muscle, the NIPPLE WAS BLURRED. we had already seen it!!!!
okay, i said my peace.