And then there was one.....

At some moment in my life, the time came when I realized that I'm alone, it's just me. Not alone like an orphan or not married or live by myself but alone in my belief, my views, my goals. Alone like I can't really tell anyone the crazy thoughts or tormented feelings of emptiness in my soul. No, it's just me and the weird, incoherent trains of thought racing uncontrollably through my mind, I can hardly hear them much less understand, how can you tell anyone else what's going on? I always, always seem to feel more,  be more offended, know more about the other side than anyone else. I take nothing at face value and am convinced that whatever words, however dripping with sincerity, have some other meaning, must have some dark hidden meaning that must be figured out, I am alone in my crazy alone in my delusional thinking that nothing is to be taken at face value.

A 4 foot teddy bear??that's the PERFECT Valentine gift?

Uh only if I am 16! I mean really if I found out that my man spent $100 okay only 99dollars for a 4 foot Teddy bear it better come with earrings or a bracelet or a really nice purse. What is a grown woman going to do with a 4 foot teddy bear? And then the love of my life spoke those words because he knows me so well, he said " what if it were made of chocolate?" Hmmmm, I thought, it would be really good chocolate for that price. And then because he knows me so well he said "what if it were made of brisket?" Oh that man has my heart :)