This Thanksgiving will mark the first in many years that all my siblings will be together with my parents and with all our children! I'm very excited about a new nephew in the family and I'm on the verge of starting a new phase of my life. Last year the children spent the day with their father and it was the first Thanksgiving since becoming a mom that I was not with my children. In some ways it was painful and yet, it was also a joyous occasion and I thank my father for letting me bring my new boyfriend along and not throwing him out LOL.
As it turns out, last year was also the last Thanksgiving for my grandmother who died a month ago yesterday. She will be greatly missed as we gather around the table and it will be hard too; especially for my mother, for whom the pain of her loss is still fresh. Still I'm so glad that I did go home - I'm grateful I spent some time with my grandmother before she passed on. She was a strong willed woman, full of passion and opinion, she led a full life - filled with both hardships, heartaches, and lots of love. I miss her and I know that there will be many times in the future that I will be sad she is not here to share my children's milestones such as graduations and weddings. I love you Grandma - may you rest in peace.
So this year, I'm thankful for the past I had with my loved ones who, like my grandmother, are no longer here with us. I'm also thankful for a new life, one with happiness and affection and love - a new life without the subjugation of my last relationship.
PEACE
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