This Body

 his look of disgust in silence spoke volumes

how dare i exist when i am not "pleasing" to his eye

he hates that I dare wear what I want regardless of my size, my age, the wear and tear of 

THIS BODY

which was never, ever made nor meant to be "pleasing" to him

THIS BODY

brought forth two wonderful, amazing and unique persons into  this world

THIS BODY

which he views with disdain and judgement

has climbed to the top of Enchanted Rock more than once

this body which he deems too fat, too old, too saggy

has climbed to the top of Ek Balam and enjoyed the view of the rainforest,

spanning as far as the eye could see

THIS BODY

has known heartbreak and illness and death and sorrow and still

THIS BODY

has known pleasure and ecstasy, pain and healing

Shame is something that I will never feel

Regret is unknown

THIS BODY

can give pleasure like he has never known and never will

THIS BODY

is mine and I will celebrate it as I choose, cover or uncover as I choose

THIS BODY

holds the soul of a warrior